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|| Saturday, February 14, 2009 || || 10:35 PM ||

Hey everybody. today's valentine's day & yet i'm in a bad mood.. -.- i sometimes really feel like dying. and leaving this world. but i can't. LOL.
Today morning went for cca and was freaking tired. and halfway through the cca, my vision suddenly black out. ohh. blacked out for about 20-30secs. -,- aft cca, went hme to prepare & then go meet wf and go eunos mrt and meet charlotte, peggy, shearer there. then the train came. so dam full. charlotte & peggy go first . and wf, shearer and me waited for the next train to come. few 10 mins ltr, meeted them. and went to take neoprints.. we 3 guys actually dun feel like taking loh. but kena forced. and the end i dun think dat there's is any pics of mine?? i'm nt sure. LOL then went ard the place and walk here walk there.
then went to buy a comic. (the la bi xiao xin) . but wtf!! when me, shearer & wf went to eat kfc, knn !! i put the book there & forgotted to take it back wif me.. rofl. such a dumbass. and, i hate myself. alot. and ard 7 +, shearer, wf and me go play arcade. and saw someone. HAHA ! then we dc . loll. 8+ start gng back home. so freaking boring..

And really, i feel myself so useless. really dam hate myself. I SUCKS. i don't know why i'll feel dis way. but jus a kind of feeling dat i hate myself. ohh, yeah, i noe i say it umpteen times. but really, seriously, i hate myself for being so .. .. ! -.- hais. dis can't blame others. can only blame myself. for being so humji. wtfux. and i really feel like dying. REALLY. why must i be like dis? cant i jus be mre natural?? LOL. Today shud be a happy day for me & yet i'm scolding myself here . and feeling so low.

I HATE MYSELF ! :(

anyway, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO EVERYBODY !

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